(F)

"look at all the brits!"

I have a thousand and one apologies to make. I can't say i particularly remember last night, or what was said or what went on, but i do know that you weren't happy. Well, i could have guessed that much. I don't know how to apologise. I can just say i am sorry profusely and i'm sure the words mean little but the feeling is most definately there. I know i have disappointed you, myself as well if i am honest, but, well, (here i would like to say it was a one off, but that sounds so cliché and stupid, so prehaps i shall just end the sentance with "well,")
I am absolutely terrified i have pushed you away. I don't know what i said to you last night, i doubt it was ledgible whatever it was, but i can presume it was something i wouldn't normal say with a stable head. I love you. I am completely and utterly taken over by you. I didn't want to tell you incase i scared you away, incase you didn't/don't feel the same. Every single thing i do i associate something with you. Every single thought is one of you and every single dream has you in it. I can't explain how overwhelmed i am with, you. I can safely say you amaze me, you make me a different, what feels like a better, person. I no longer am scared the feelings will not be returned (although i would hope they are (!)) becuase this is how i feel about you and nothing is going to change that. Not for an extremely long time anyway.
I think that is all i have to say for now. (F)


hannah