We'll make the great escape

Bloody love that photo. It's not mine though. I would love to go to America, always wanted to go, always will. Tennessee first please (F)

Today i was shocked by how many people actually read this shit. It's like what Bene said, about people reading his blogs; are people stalking me!?

This is another one of those blogs that i have open in a window for hours, but don't really write much for ages.

My head is spinning at the moment. (of course as a metaphor; not literally.) So many thoughts are going through my mind. How do you suddenly change, from one person to another? I have been looking at old photographs from 4, prehaps 5 years ago, and they have made me think. Where is the person in those photographs? Don't get me wrong, i don't want her to come back, not at all, but, where did she go? At what point do you, get rid of one personality and take on another? Prehaps it's when i lost weight. Prehaps i lost my naivety at the same time. Or maybe it was after that. Maybe it was when people started telling me i looked good thinner, maybe i thought "Jesus, they're all telling me i look good, i must have look bloody awful before." Or maybe i just grew without realising. Maybe i was forced to grow up by events and people. But at what point, did i bcome this? This. At what point did my life become completely and utterly influenced and attached to, people i've never even met, a pathetic website in which you add people to your list to show your popularity as a number? At what point, did i become obsessed with things that are bad for me? At what point did i suddenly change, and i would like to know, why don't i remember it? This obvisouly drastic change in my personality, and i don't remember it...why?

I could go on with all of this, but what good will it bring to everyone's mediocre little lives?

Exactly.

That's all for tonight.



hannah
(prehaps i should sign this anonymous; to indicate that another change in myself is happening, and i am between persons.)