Today has been SUCH a wierd day. I've had one of the worst and one of the best days in a long time. I didn't go out in the end, and i was mega bummed out cause of my mum pissing me off, but then i talked to Bene, and Lauren, and i read Dan's blog, and Bene sent me Your Song and the world was right again :] OH and it rained. i always feel better when it's raining. i don't know why, i just really like it.
Anyway, Bene made me happy because Bene is Bene, and i made a complETE fool of myself (lol) but oh well.
Lauren made me happy becuase i can't WAIT to see her tommorrow :]
Dan's blog made me extra happy becuase of well what it said lol. Dan, i am so proud of you. I always knew something would have to change for you to realise that, and now it has and you have, and i am so fucking grateful to Holly.
I am scared of turning into my mum. One thing i notice about her, she always expects the worst thing to happen, so she isn't so hurt when it does, (If it does) I don't want to do that, but i can feel myself doing it with this situation. How do you push thoughts out of your head? You can ignore them, but they don't go away. Prehaps you tell someone. Prehaps once a thought is there, it is there forever. I don't know.
Anyway, i know i'm happy today. I know i am happy when i am able to help someone else feel better. If i can't, then i'm not happy myself. Today i can and i have. I'm back people :]
So i think that's enough for now. I can't WAIT for tomorrow, i'ma take pictures for Bene (F)
I LOVE YOU. (F)
hannah
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