Writing for yourself

Okay, so i'm writing for myself.

I think i love Willem. i feel a lot for him. we kissed, that felt good but not fantastic. i had this kinda attraction to it though, i wasn't 100% pleased with how it felt, but i wanted to do it more and more. the one thing is, i don't want a boyfriend who says "Shit happens love, deal with it :)"

i want someone who cares. i don't know. i can't string him along. but whatever. he felt my arse and my chest which felt fantastic.

i told fay about my self harm and i hope she doesn't tell anyone.

This year at school i am going to try my hardest. i did my biology homework last night, well part of it, which is something new becuase usually i leave it until the night before, and i mean like 11pm the night before.

i'm not sure how i feel about my self harm. i want to do it. i thik i do anyway. i want something to fill the hole that food is no longer allowed to fill. meh. i dont know realy


i like Matt.

i want breakfast.