Back to the middle of nowhere

I think i finally feel content about the whole Willem situation.
I need to make a proper decision, stop questioning myself
It's times like thsi i feel like i could take on the world. I feel happy, unstoppable.
I think, fuck everything, i can be myself, i am happy, this is who i am
i can stay like this and everything will be okay.
For now , that's how it's going
I'm happy being Willems friend.

I need a holiday diary, i don't want to forget what i've done, so here it goes, i will be editing this most days to add to it.

Friday after school: Town with Willem and everyone. Things messed up with Willem.
Saturday: Mancester.
Sunday: nothing.
Monday: Walton Gardens with Katie and Fay
Tuesday: Walton Gardens with Katie and Lauren
Wednesday: Town shopping for holiday stuff with Katie and Lauren
Thursday: Walton Gardens WITH WELLIES!
Friday: Laurens in the night, film, pride and prejudice LOL
Saturday: Amazing day in town on Queens with everyone. Music festival. Kayle hit his arse falling off the skateboard, followed LENON with Fee and Becky. Saw Willem in the morning. Harry Potter with Coley and Lauren in the evening.
Sunday: Nothing
Monday: Crocky Trail (Y) with Lauren and family
Tuesday: Town with Willem then Manchester with the mother.
Wednesday: Work in the day, town afterwards with Kayle, Coll, Paige, Lisa, Josh, Danny and some other guy with sick hair.
Thursday: Work then dads house, fucking joy
Friday: Work then dad's house, again. ew. town with Kayle and Ky after work, walking around nowhere, chavs singing bacon songs at police and telling us to get rid of our drugs.
Saturday: oh my gosh, what a day, town and nearly getting beaten up by the bloody chavs... *copies and pastes*
We were sat on Queens park, me, Lauren, and Kayle, and there was this gang of chavs in all trackies and stuff and we just looked at them and they looked back so Lauren smiled and then we were like, shit they might follow us, so we got up and started walking off, but they followed us, and they started shouting "don't walk away from us" and we were like EEEK WALK QUICKER! So we did, and they started catching up to us, and we were like fuckfuckfuck, and this girl who was 16 (we found out after) started saying to Lauren "Why was you starin at me" so Lauren was proper like "We weren't staring at you." i would have just been like "oh my gosh i'm sorry" lol. but anyways, she was like "Yeah you fuckin' were mateeee" and Lauren was like "Fuck off, no we weren't." So i was like fucking hell she's gonna get us fucking knifed!!! So Lauren started walking off and i was like oh my gosh oh my gosh and they were shouting after her like "DOn't fuckin' ignore me, don't fuckin walk away from me when am talking to you" and i was like eeee. And me and Kayle just were kinda walking along with the chavs like, just get to whree more people are, cause there was fucking no one there, and then they stopped so we stopped, and they were like, "So why the fuck were you all starin' at us" and I was like "Oh she didn't mean to offend you, she was just being nice" so then she started like proper shouting "I don't want to fuckin' moshers bein' nice to me" and i was like aaahhhh and then they were all like "Fuckin' bang her out mate" and i was like NONONON and she goes "Nah, i can't hit her, she's too small" so i was like THANK FUCK. but they were proper taking the piss out of Kayle, like asking him if he was a boy or a girl and how old and stuff, and then they asked us if we would tell the police if they hit us, and i said i dind't know and Kayle said yeah, and then the girl started taking all her rings off and like stretching her knuckels and stuff and i was proper shitting myself, and she started saying "I promised (enter chav name here) I'd bang out a mosher every day so i'm doin' him a favour" and i was like fuckfuckfuck and she just kept like acting like she was gonna hit him for ages, then the others started telling her to stop picking on people for no reason, and shit and she was like just telling them to fuck off, and then she goes to Kayle "Are you scared" and he nodded and she went "Oh i can't hit him now, he's fukin' scared" and then her mate put her arm around Kayle and was like "go now" and i grabbed his arm and i RANNN ahahaha


Haha, then back on Queens after with Fee trying to smoke! and then Coley's in the night, WOW.
Sunday:Slept a lot of the day, was extremely tired as we dind't sleep at Coley's.
Monday: Manchester with Cat! Ohh was good fun. I can't remeber any quotes though :( ROCKETDOGS(Y)
Tuesday: Hair cut in the morning, Piano viewing with Sheila Stamp in the afternoonnnn. good day
Wednesday: DAY WITH WILLEM ON QUEENS! we had a Starbucks first in Borders, and then we walked back to Queens and we sat down on the grass under a tree, and it was sunshining and we lay down and lay for hours looking up at the sky through the trees and he kept hugging me and then he looked into my eyes and said i had the most beautiful eyes he'd ever seen and we just talked and talked and talked and then he hugged and put his head on my chest and then he kissed my neck and then he looked at me and then he kissed me on the lips and then he just lay next to me, and i told him i liked things how they were but i didnt' want them to change; i dont want a relationship and he said that he would love me as a friend for as long as he lives and we just talked and talked and hugged and talked and hugged and talked and then i had to go and we hugged some mroe and i went home! But all in all i spent about four and a half hours on Queens with him, ohhh it was lovely!
Thursday: work eewww
Friday: work, then dads, even worse!
Saturday: Woke up at 11 past ten, should have left the house at ten, absolutely rushed and got to the station before hannah. went Manchester with Hannah. was alright, got train home about half three and spent some time in town with Cat and Fee and all that lot then came home and the mother was angry becuase i hadn't texted her allllll day.
Sunday: Nothing, but Katie came homeeeee!!!
Monday: Town with Willem in the morning which was lovely and then Katie came in the afternoon :)!:)!:)!
Tuesday: The stream with Katie and Sam and the strongbow and nearly getting arrested ahahaha
Wednesday: Town in the morning with Fay and everyone and i saw Pem :S and then Manchester with Nicky, Katie, Coley, Ben and Mike.
Thursday: First day staying in. Homework day (Y)
Friday:Fay's house! then my dad's..
Saturday: First day of doing absolutely nothing. That isn't a sunday. But tomorrow will be HECTIC!
Sunday: painting day, did art homework, was boring. COLEY'S IN THE EVENING iwth Katie and Nicky and Coley obviously and ohh it was fantastic (See Coley's blog)
Monday: I absolutely can't remember. sorry.
Tuesday: ermm like town or something? i can't remember again
Wednesday: Walton gardens with willem which was nice but i was a cunt and didn't speak like all day
Thursday: Manchester with Katie and Cat which was brilliant
Friday: GO ON HOLIDAY
Saturday: holiday
Sunday: holiday
Monday: holiday
Tuesday: holiday
Wednesday: holiday
Thursday: holiday
Friday: holiday, big ass delay on way home.
Saturday: MY BIRTHDAY! town with Lauren and Willem and Coley nad Nicky and Ben ad nwhoever else was there i can't really remember, see Coley's blog.
Sunday: MANCHESTER with Lauren and Nicky and Coley, fanTAStic day, see Coley's blog again. was brilliant.
Monday: HOMEWORK DAY. and update of blog.
Tuesday: homework and then town. was shit really.
Wednesday: BACK TO SCHOOL

So there we go people, my summer. I CANT WAIT FOR NEXT YEARS.



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